Today

Today I want you in my arms.
Today I need you to tell me you actually loved me.
Today you and me make sense.
Today everything reminds me of you.
Today I don't want to cry.
Today I am sorry for all the pain I caused.
Today I dont' want us to be over.
Today the pain of saying goodbye is as fresh as the day I said it.
Today I can't think of anyone else but you.
Today I wonder how to make this work.
Today will turn into tomorrow and what will I have then? A bunch of empty wishes, broken promises, fallen tears, sleepless nights, wasted days.....but today I love you and you are worth the pain.

Here is a pic....

This is me and Roger the night we went to see New Moon :) He is doing thumbs up! Haha not sure why :) We have so much fun together, he is great!

Alissa is no longer listed as single

So it's official....I have a boyfriend. (Pause for the open mouths to close, for the screams to stop and the "I can't believe it" to sink in) Well you may have read the post cooking at work and read that I had gone out on a date with a certain man named Roger. Well we have been dating for almost a month and this past week decided to just date each other, be exclusive I guess.

Well this is my first real relationship, I know kinda hard to believe, but it is. And I am a little out of sorts with it. I was not planning on getting a boyfriend or a relationship at all. I was not out looking (I mean I was going on dates but nothing crazy) and then Roger just showed up. Haha literally he just showed up at work and asked me out! I am a nervous wreck when I see him, but then I am completely relaxed...is this normal? I have to admit this is so new to me that I have been asking for advice at every corner, but I also know that I need to do this my own way.

We are both really nervous I think so things are going slow...which to be honest bugged me at first but now I am totally OK with :) I am not in a hurry, Jackie said to enjoy these first few months of dating because they are the best and I plan on making them just that!

Lunch Committee

Here are some of the committee members for Lunch. I LOVE this bunch...they are amazing!!

Cooking at work

Well I was invited over to Rogers house for dinner and did not want to show up empty handed, as any guest knows you don't. So I decided I wanted to make dessert. One little problem...I am working. Well no fear I can make something, I mean come on I work in a grocery store right! OK what to make....I have no stove, oven, blender, freezer....um the options are getting pretty low. Well Danielle who has her cook book with her (have no idea why) pulls out a recipe for Oreo truffles. All you need is a package of Oreo's, cream cheese, and almond bark. Pretty simple. You crush the Oreo's combine them with the cream cheese, roll into balls and dip in the almond bark and refrigerate.

It took about three hours from start to finish, which is due to the fact that I had to stop and come back when we were slow. So I think if you were to do this at home it would be a lot faster! They turned out great!! I have never had them and I was a little nervous they were not going to taste good, but they were amazing! Thanks everyone at work for helping out!

Dinner was great, he didn't have time to cook because he got off work late so we just ordered pizza and watched a movie. It was a fun night, I really liked the part where he held my hand...that was pretty good :)

A Very Merry Unbirthday to Cynthia!

Here we are sitting at El Matador and our waitress Nitra, (who I guess is my cousin...no idea how we are related) comes over and says (in a very heavy Armenian accent) "Are we celebrating a birthday tonight?" She looks around the table stopping on Cynthia, smiling. "Its your birthday" she says pointing at her. "No" replies Cynthia, "its not my birthday". Nitra doesn't take no for an answer and says "Come we will sing to you." All of us are laughing as she takes Cynthia into the other room places a sombrero on her head.

Nitra-Hey everyone it is Cyndia's birthday today..how old are you sweetie?

Cynthia-22

Nitra-Cyndia is turning 21!

CHEERS from the crowd at this point

Nitra-So lets sing to her

As the chorus of Happy birthday rings throughout the restaurant I am dying of laughter, especially the part in the song when it gets to the persons name and since no one can understand a word Nitra said, everyone mumbles past that part to finish off with a big bang of applause and a scream from me!




A very merry unbirthday my friend....and sorry about not getting you a gift I will have to be more on top of that next time! :) oh p.s. my sister just said how I am related to Nitra...she is my dad's sisters husbands niece.....yeah so I just say cousin.

School!?!?!

School starts this week....do you think I am ready? Haha not at all actually! I don't know why but it seems to have snuck up behind me and knocked me down! I am sitting here trying to pay for school and it is not working, staring at my book bag that is sitting in my closet with the tags still attached. And I am getting this feeling that this semester is going to be a challenge. I am though I have to say super excited for lunch committee, speaking of I have a meeting for in the morning at 6:30! whew I need to get to bed if I am to make that ;) hope everyone has a great first week of school...wish me luck!

Name Tags

Why do we have to wear name tags at work? I mean can't I just be your cashier, teller, waitress, or receptionist with out you knowing my name? Doesn't knowing my name make this transaction more personal over business? So now you the customer are upset when I take you yelling at me personal, but didn't you just make this personal by using my name repeatedly in the conversation, that may I add was increasing in decibels. I would appreciate you treating me like a person since by my name tag you can clearly see that I am.

And July turned to August

Ok its here....the month of August. The month I have been waiting for for a year now. Well the wedding came and it was a blast. We danced and laughed the whole night! Jackie looked so pretty, I wanted to cry when she was walking down the aisle. And Doug couldn't stop smiling, it was so perfect. Now here I sit on top of a world of questions some with answers some not so much. First off to all of you wondering no I am not going on a misson. What felt so right last year feels very confusing. It is hard to explain. And to answer your next question no I do not have a boyfriend. Haha it seems like that is what is assumed when I say I am not going on a mission anymore. I am going to school in the fall, just two classes is all. My dear friend Cynthia registered me back in April...maybe she knew something :) Speaking of Cynthia her missionary comes home in a week!!! She is super excited and nervous. Which describes my feelings as well. I had a dream last night that she got married and I was all alone, it was one of the saddest dreams I have had. But I know we will always be friends even when she is married. And speaking of marriage Krystle is getting married next week, so that is added to the crazy month. My month of maddness actually started at the end of July. With a new job, my birthday, a funeral for my dear Grandpa, and Jackies wedding..it was pretty stressful. So now all I have left is some fun stuff. Broadway in the Desert, a trip to Boise Idaho and a family reunion, the second half of the month should be a lot more fun!

Funny Bones

A couple weekends ago I played one of the funniest games, it is called "Funny Bones." Cynthia and I had a couple of people come over to her house to play some games and Jeffery brought this. I have never laughed so hard. :)

So here is a little background. For this game you split up into partners one boy and one girl and draw a card off the ground and do what it says. On the card it tells you something like Head bone connected to the Shoulder bone with a number on it stating how many points its worth. So one of the partners puts their head on the other's shoulder with the card in between. The object of the game is to be the last couple standing with the most points. If you drop a card you are out, or if you can't do what it says you are out. There are also Funny Bone cards which act like wilds and can be placed anywhere you don't already have a card.

Alright so here we all are getting ready to split up into teams. There is me, Cynthia, Jeffery, Phillip, Vanessa, Michael, Eric and his brother Adam. So I kinda like Jeffery and Phillip so I am thinking I have a good shot at being with someone I like. Eric says he has to leave but Adam wants to stay and play a few rounds. The moment comes and Vanessa grabs Phillip, Michael and Cynthia get paired up and Jeff is going to show us how to play so who does that leave me with.....ADAM! A kid I just met, haha only my luck.

Everyone is getting easy cards, like head bone to shoulder bone, hand bone to shin bone, knee bone to knee bone. OH NO not Adam and I we get the most random cards. Hip bone to hip bone and nose to nose bone. And there is Cynthia's mom just taking pictures like mad cuz we are so entwined with each other it looks like we are making out! We played a second time and we were going to switch partners but Adam thought we worked well together. Haha needless to say we got pretty close pretty fast!

Need Birthday Game Ideas

So as all of you know I just LOVE my birthday! And I love birthday parties. So every year I try to have an extremely fun birthday party. Last year was a costume party, and it was a blast! Everyone showed up in costume and danced the night away...oh it was my favorite! Well this year I have been thinking about what I wanted to do and me and the girls at work came up with a Carnival theme party. I am super excited!!

So I have been brainstorming about what to have at this carnival and have a few ideas. What I am really lacking is stuff for the adults to do (yes I invite EVERYONE to my birthday parties). So far I have a bean bag toss, dart board, fishing pond, face painting, guess the jelly bean jar, and tin can ally. All of these seem to be more for the kids than the adults, so I am asking you bloggers for help in coming up with games for the adults to play. Also I don't want people to have to sit at a booth all night and not enjoy the festivities any ideas on how to set up the carnival? Thanks anything will help me out!!

What You Talkin' 'Bout?

So life has been crazy this past month (or maybe a little longer), but I wanted to post some things I found interesting or have been wondering about for a while.

I can name who is on American Idol, Dancing with the Stars and The Amazing Race before I can name the Mayor of Roy City. How sad is that?! I mean here is a man (or woman, but I am pretty sure it is a man) that has direct influence over my life, makes decisions that effect me personally, yet I do not take the time to know him. I will however DVR all my favorite shows so I don't miss a beat. I hate that I am more involved in the lives of people that don't matter at all than my own community. And what makes this even worse is my mom is on the planning committee for Roy city. She is involved in tons of city work, which makes me really proud. I am going to work on becoming more involved in my community (well at least know the Mayor's name!)

Something that has been really bothering me is how bad of a friend I have become. Everyone knows that if you want to talk to me you have to be the one who calls first. And I hate that. I hate being so predicable. I want to be the friend that calls you up out of the blue to check and see how things are going, invites you to lunch or a movie because you haven't seen each other in a while or even email to check in with each other. But the truth is I am not that friend. I forget to return phone calls and feel like I can never make lunch dates. I really feel that this summer is going to be different, I am going to make more of an effort to stay in contact with people.

Other thing I find interesting is the Swine Flu. Recently I required a cold and everyone asks me if I have the swine flu (some are kidding around)... no I don't have the H1N1 virus, just a plain human cold. There are some people extremely nervous of this flu, but I am not one of those. I think that we have better medical technology than we have ever had and this will get under control soon. Yes it is scary the way it has been spreading and effecting people, but I think if we all just go back to what we learned in elementary school we will be fine. Just wash your hands after sneezing or coughing, throw away used tissues and if you feel sick do not go to school or work in case of spreading it to others.

Fun Facts about me!

1. What is your occupation right now?
Student and Teller at AFCU

2. What color are your socks right now?
I am not wearing any

3. What are you listening to right now?
My playlist

4. What was the last thing that you ate?
Cold pizza (I love it cold)

5. Can you drive a stick shift?
No it is something I want to learn

6. Last person you spoke to on the phone?
Cynthia

7. How old are you today?
22, I am getting up there!!

8. What is your favorite sport to watch on TV?
Um I like to watch the Professional bowling, it makes me want to go bowling

9. What is your favorite drink?
Well my dad bought egg nog this week and I remember how much I love that stuff, but for an every day drink water.

10. Have you ever dyed your hair?
Haha yeah it is dyed right now, I usually dye it a purple red color

11. Favorite food?
right now I am really digging chips and salsa, I could really eat that every day

12. What is the last movie you watched?
Anastasia here at home on my lap top (and everyone better not think it is a disney movie!)

13. Favorite day of the year?
Oh gosh...my birthday of course!

14. How do you vent anger?
I keep it all in, till I am really upset then it is just like a tea kettle going off. I need to work on expressing my anger

15. What was your favorite toy as a child?
I loved these little dolls we had, they were called quints. There were three girls and two boys, and they came with bottles that were numbered and all hooked together, haha they were the best!

16. What is your favorite season?
Fall..I LOVE fall! Plus it has my favorite holiday..Halloween!

17. Cherries or Blueberries?
I am not a fan of blueberries so cherries I guess, but I would take strawberries or raspberries first

18. Living arrangements?
Room next to my sister's!

19. When was the last time you cried?
Today (04-19-09) during Dallan's talk in church

20. What is on the floor of your closet?
Shoes and clothes

21. What did you do last night
Played games and rock bandwith my awesome family that is in town!! And I went to a house warming party for my friends dad

22. What are you most afraid of
Better question..what am I not afraid of!

23. Plain, cheese, or spicy hamburger
Cheese...I love cheese!

24. Favorite dog breed
Cocker Spaniel

25. Favorite day of the week?
Saturday or Sunday.

26. How many states have you lived in?
Utah and Florida

27. Diamonds or pearls?
Diamonds all the way

28. What is your favorite flower?
sunflowers at the moment

29.Favorite Icecream flavor?
To buy at the store I love Neopolitan ice cream to order at an Ice cream shop I get cheesecake

30. What are you supposed to be doing instead of answering this?
Sleeping.

Oh, that's right---I hate Watermelon

I don't like watermelon. The taste, the texture, the smell, the seeds, how it drips down your chin when you eat it and makes your chin itch....yeah I don't like it, not even the artificial flavor. Yet every summer the lure of the children running around at the county fairgrounds with huge slices of watermelon in their hands and smiles on their faces makes me stand in line to get a piece for myself. The scenario is always the same, as I stare at my slice of melon I vaguely remember my dislike for this particular fruit, "But that was last summer," I say to myself, "This is a different fair so it must be a different batch of watermelon, everyone else is enjoying it so much it can't be that bad right?" WRONG, even on the first bite my taste buds remind me how much I hate it. As the juice runs down my chin onto my shirt and seeds fill up my mouth I curse myself for falling for the pink fruit once again and vow that next time I will be smarter. But here I sit, cursing myself because I have fallen once again for watermelon. I was positive this time was different, that watermelon wanted me back, wanted something more than just a summer fling. Everyone even encouraged me this time to try watermelon again, assuring me that they could see it working out, almost that we were made fore each other. So I risked it one more time, hoping, even praying that we could see it through. but watermelon rejected me, left me standing at the front of the line waiting for my slice of happiness but there was none to be found. My hopeless quest to like watermelon is finally over, I am done trying to confuse my senses into liking something that never works out. Although the journey was sometimes great, the watermelon ripe and seedless, in the end it was still watermelon and I still don't like it.

You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself, any direction you choose.

Sorry it has been forever since my last post, to be honest I totally forgot about it. Everyone else is way good at keeping up, but I have never been one of those kinds of people. So I just wanted to write about what me and Cynthia have been up to. Last week for the Insitute Lunch they had green eggs and ham in celebration for Dr. Seuss's birthday, well you know how much I love to dress up so me and Cynthia made Thing one and Thing two costumes to wear for lunch and then to wear for the preschoolers while we read "The Cat in the Hat" it was so much fun. It is something I want to do for my future classroom!