My worst fear came true

I never thought I would see the day when me, one who is extremely careful not to fall, has to wear a boot and use crutches! I don't think everyone knows my huge fear of falling down, ever since I was little I have never wanted to fall down. I didn't learn to ride a bike, roller skate, ice skate; haha basically anything normal kids wanted to learn because I was scared to fall. I didn't want to break a bone, and my goal was to go through my whole life without a single bone broken. Mainly I didn't want to break my leg or foot because I never wanted to get around using crutches.

Well my worst fear came true yesterday. I was at Cafe Rio getting salad for me and my cousin RaeAnne and after getting dinner I walked out to my car. Now I wish I had a cool story like I jumped out to save a child from getting hit by a car or I was wearing six inch heels and tripped. No all I did was step off the curb, one single step and the next thing I knew I was on the ground. Smashing the salads underneath me no less. Well I fall all the time as many of you know, so even though my foot was killing me I just assumed it was like any other fall. I sat on the ground for a couple minutes with the salads crushed under me and both shoes off my feet before I picked myself off the ground dusted off the bark and gravel and got in my car. I tried not to cry at first and just told myself I was ok. I used cruise control once I got on the freeway because switching from the gas pedal to the brake was killing me. I started to cry on the freeway because it hurt so bad but also because I ruined the salads that I just bought! I finally made it home and called RaeAnne once I got in the driveway to come and get the salads, I didn't think I could carry them while trying to walk. Once I limped my way into the house I sat down in the chair and really just wanted to rest. RaeAnne told me to take off my shoe and see how swollen it was and this is what I saw!




Well I started to really cry at this point because it scared me to death! I just kept telling RaeAnne I did not want it broken because I did not want to use crutches. She called my mom and as soon as my mom saw it she started running around the house looking for my Grandma's old crutches, which she didn't find and I was grateful. We ran to the doctor down the street and my mom asked if I wanted to use a wheelchair, haha I thought now that is just silly I can walk. Well when they took me back to see the doctor and the nurse asked if I needed a wheelchair, again I thought no I am completely fine, well on the inside I was thinking I was fine but on the outside I was crying. So needless to say I got a wheelchair :)

They took some x-rays (which of course they make you sit in uncomfortable positions to get a "good shot") and the doctor concluded I sprained my ankle and broke a bone on my foot below my little toe. Once he told me I was going to get a boot and crutches I started to break down.
I told my mom I didn't want crutches between my sobs and she said I know. I told her that I was going to be ok, because I realized that there was no going back. I didn't have a choice I had to use the crutches. The doctor and nurses all showed me how to use the crutches. And told me that I can not put weight on it for two weeks and the boot stays on the whole time, even in the shower.

My mom and RaeAnne have been taking really good care of me :) And Cynthia brought me Ice Cream which was just what I needed. It has put a damper on my summer plans; no more Lagoon or Hiking Mt. Timp. But maybe I won't be so scared of falling now that I have to get use to using crutches!